I've had a lot to think about recently, and a lot of it resulted in a very positive outcome. I've gotten a lot of notes over the years regarding a guy in Brazil named Lupi who has made a costume of my character Kaylee and likes to draw her. I was bombarded a few years back by artists going "how dare he" and "he stole your fursona" and "whatever, it's not like you draw furry anymore". I was very vulnerable at the time, and in a very bad spot so I let other people's negativity tear me and Lupi down. This I regret. It pushed me further into a dark space where I didn't even want to create anymore.
But you know, Kaylee isn't my fursona. She was a character I created with the intention of writing stories about, and with the intention of touching the lives of others. Because of the dark spot I was in I thought that I did nothing to deserve this attention. I didn't create a story, only art. I thought I was invisible and nobody cared. But apparently that art had touched the life of one person and gave him the courage to learn to draw and make costumes. This was the reaction I had hoped to get if I did something right. It was a bit too early for me, but apparently my creation helped somebody.
Do you get down on people who cosplay at an anime convention? Do you go to the creator and be like "how dare he?" Especially if that costume is extremely tasteful, clean, and respectful of the original intention of the character. Lupi UNDERSTANDS her, all of the way down to her personality and her sunhat. I will honor this. I am proud of what I created, and I hope he's proud of the costume and art he made.
I am in a LOT better space now, and I am drawing again. I've been doing really well the last few weeks and I am almost to the point where I can work on those few pieces of owed artwork again. Lupi made some mistakes, and so have I. I would prefer it if people talked to me first about costumes but whatever. It's time to move forward. I can chose which parties I attend, and I will not belong to that which encourages gossip, drama, and tearing aspiring artists down. Lupi has my blessings so please show him respect if he wears his Kaylee costume.